This week’s speaker is Guy Zeller from the French part of Switzerland. Let me just say I am so full from his teaching! I could chew and chew and then try to digest it for weeks, I’m sure. I am super excited because Father answered a desire of my heart in bringing Guy to teach on our PCYM.
Backstory: In November of 2010 we went to a KKI conference in Barcelona, Spain. We even had a couple youth from our club come with us. Guy Zeller and his family were there and came on as part of the international core leadership team and so I had the opportunity to sit in on one of his teaching sessions. I was radically convicted – the “good-kind-of-confirmation-that-what-the-Lord-has-been-revealing-to-me-was-right-on” type of convicted. That year the Lord had been revealing to me that the priorities in our family weren’t ok. I believe that often happens as the wife and mother – we are in the middle of the tension of raising our children while our husbands are out of the home providing for their families. In my case my husband was often away ministering to people, that in my opinion, had far greater needs than either me or my children. But I was realizing that was coming at a price – an expensive price that we actually were never asked to pay! After hearing Guy’s teaching that November, I returned to my room in tears because it had strongly struck a chord within me to stop the way we were “doing” ministry! It was a confirmation that the year of 2011 that we had prayed about as a sabbatical year would be a tremendous time for us to heal and be equipped in the new things God was calling us into. Greg and I sat before the Lord in prayer, repented of our neglect of the fact that God had also called our children into ministry and we were to do it together as family. Each person in our family had a specific role in changing the generation of Poland for Christ!
Needless to say, when I arrived in Hawaii and saw that Guy would be one of our speakers on our PCYM, I was giddy! I knew the Lord was going to speak to Greg and me through him and bring us both closer to being on the same page of what our future would look like together concerning family in ministry (and just plain family in general!). On the first day Guy went through Matthew 18:1-14. It would be a very long blog entry if I went through everything he taught but I will share what struck me the most. In verse 10 it says:
“See that you do not despise one of these little ones. For I tell you that in heaven their angels always see the face of my Father who is in heaven.”
He went into the meaning of the word “despise” from this verse. It has added a whole new understanding for me. In Greek it means “to contemn, despise, disdain, think little or nothing of”. In other words, it is like saying “just” or “only”. He is “only” a child or “just” a child. The same meaning is used in 1 Samuel 17:42:
And when the Philistine looked and saw David, he disdained him, for he was but a youth, ruddy and handsome in appearance.
where Goliath “disdained” David and saw him to be worthless. But we have seen what God can do with children in the bible as we look at this story and the ones of Jeremiah, Samuel, and others. Even Jeremiah says in 1:6 “ I cannot speak : for I am a child.” Guy challenged us in asking us the question, “Who do you think told Jeremiah he was ‘only’ a child?” Ouch. How often I have “despised” my own children in thinking the Lord doesn’t speak to them or won’t use them in certain situations. I’ve even had the desire of having a babysitter while Greg and I were helping lead 7/11 Club on Saturdays so that I wouldn’t be distracted by the girls “getting in the way”. I realize that sometimes it is better for my girls to be in a different place while I’m doing ministry – some things aren’t age appropriate for them – but generally speaking I was convicted of my attitude in how God could use them, wants to use them, and will use them. This is something to think about in the coming months as Greg and I (and the girls!) seek Father on his heart for us in Poland and the ministry there. I’m excited 🙂